Psalm 140[a]
For the director of music. A psalm of David.
1 Rescue me, Lord, from evildoers;
protect me from the violent,
2 who devise evil plans in their hearts
and stir up war every day.
3 They make their tongues as sharp as a serpent’s;
the poison of vipers is on their lips.[b]

4 Keep me safe, Lord, from the hands of the wicked;
protect me from the violent,
who devise ways to trip my feet.
5 The arrogant have hidden a snare for me;
they have spread out the cords of their net
and have set traps for me along my path.

6 I say to the Lord, “You are my God.”
Hear, Lord, my cry for mercy.
7 Sovereign Lord, my strong deliverer,
you shield my head in the day of battle.
8 Do not grant the wicked their desires, Lord;
do not let their plans succeed.

9 Those who surround me proudly rear their heads;
may the mischief of their lips engulf them.
10 May burning coals fall on them;
may they be thrown into the fire,
into miry pits, never to rise.
11 May slanderers not be established in the land;
may disaster hunt down the violent.

12 I know that the Lord secures justice for the poor
and upholds the cause of the needy.
13 Surely the righteous will praise your name,
and the upright will live in your presence.

When I thought my dad was cheating on my mom with a church member, I was hurtful, rude and unbecoming. While I thought he was cheating I was going out drinking, watching lewd movies and waxing away in college while the unforgiveness ravaged my life. I want to pray to repent because I cannot repay my Father. The Lord kept the situation with my dad covered and forgiven. I did struggle with reading harlequin novels and masturbation in high school so I thought why he would cheat would be my fault. I got delivered and got out my parents house so not to live openly in rebellion longer than 18. I struggle with respect for self and shame. Praying to God he will forgive for blaming the men in my family and their alternative lives of womanizing for why I struggled with lust too. It is to be born human to struggle with sin. I do repent.